I Know I'm Not Superwoman

In two weeks, I will be back at work and I'm not sure how I feel about it. When I went on maternity leave, I wasn't yet a mommie. Sure, I was carrying my precious, unborn baby girl and of course I was going to be a mommie, but I didn't know exactly how it was going to change my life. Well, it has changed my life in the most amazing way and even though I am the same person; I totally feel different now.

I have adjusted to being a mom - that is all I've had to focus on; I'm finally getting the hang of it and now I have to readjust and adapt to being a working mommie. I know, I know - I'm not the only woman in the world that has to return to work and if I could just dig up that money tree that's hiding in my backyard life would be grand. So, off to work I go balancing mommiehood and the working world; I know I'm not Superwoman, but I hope I do a good job. I hope I can stay focused enough to do my job well and still manage to be a wonderful mommie.

I know I am a strong person that enjoys a challenge and all I can do is take one day at a time and do the best that I can, right?

Rainbows and Bunnies...

In the last few months, I've experienced many special moments with Brooklynn that I will cherish forever, but I have one particular moment that we share that melts my heart. It's when it's just the two of us and she's cuddled in my arms or lying on my chest, I could stay in that one spot forever just staring at her; still in disbelief that she's my little girl.

I love staring and watching her facial expressions. Especially, when she's smiling in her sleep and gives out the occasional giggle; it makes me think that she's dreaming of rainbows and bunnies. I'm not sure why I assume she's dreaming of rainbows and bunnies, but what little girl doesn't dream of those things?

As hard as it might be, muddling my way through mommyhood; it makes it all worth it when I share those special moments with her. I know we will share many special times together in the coming years, but I will always remember the feelings I had when we were snuggled together in the middle of the night and the joy she brought to my heart...

Time Goes By Too Quickly!

My little girl is 2 1/2 months old; I can't believe how quickly time goes by! Before I know it, I will be bawling my eyes out as I send her to her 1st day of kindergarten! How do I make time slow down? It was just about a year ago I found out I was pregnant and I now have a healthy, smiley, and beautiful little girl (ok, I'm just a little biased)!

It's still so surreal to me that I carried a little person in my belly for 9 months and she's ALL mine. Technically, she's not ALL mine, but right now I don't feel like sharing! Regardless, I am now responsible for a little human being other then myself! I do have to say that she is making me more aware and accountable for my actions - sometimes I need someone to do that for me! And, who knew that you could love someone SO much! As frustrated, sad, or upset I may be about something; I look at her and she makes everything all better! She makes my heart smile and that's the best feeling in the whole world!

I'm going back to work in a month and it makes me sad just writing about it. I know, I'm not the only mommie in the world that has to be a working mommie, but just the thought of leaving her makes me sad! I am thankful that I've had this time with her; time that I will never be able to get back! I know this month is going to go by too quickly, but I am going to cherish each and every moment with her! Because before I know it, I'll be wiping back tears as I watch her walk off to her first day of kindergarten!